Trust & Obey

As July is taking off, I have been reading with speed to get through my Smart Girl Summer Reading List (SGSRL from now on). Despite the bum out with The Cellar, I’m feeling good about SGSRL so far. Tuesday, I knocked out In Order To Live by Yeomni Park. A book review on that is definitely in the works! As you know, I also completed The Law by Frédéric Bastiat which I talked about in the Definition of Freedom post. Now I’m deviating from the list to read Blackout by Candace Owens which I am super excited about! I have heard so many fantastic things about this book. I actually heard Owens speak at a conference last month and she was excellent. To sum it up, Owens makes the case for how Black Americans are being used and abused by the Democratic party and why it’s time they exit. She discusses every facet of politics from this vantage point. From transgenderism to feminism, she shows how this has impacted the African American community deeply.

After I knock that one out, I don’t know where I’m going to go next. I’d probably like to hit Brave New World by Aldous Huxley followed by 1984 so I can get a back-to-back look at these two. I’m thinking a compare and contrast review could be fascinating… We’ll see what I will do but I’m feeling good.

On a more personal level, I am exactly five weeks away from leaving for college, and let me tell you I am SO EXCITED!!! I just need to get everything packed first, which is a bit overwhelming. I feel very much like a fish out of water in this new stage of life. People have been so sweet and given me things that they found helpful in college. Instead of me adding it to the list, I get to add it and then promptly check it off.

As the date nears, I think where it will get hard is leaving my family. I’m really not that nervous-I probably will be though on the day- but I am worried about how it will be hard for everyone else. I’ll go on having a fun time doing tons of activities. My family will go home and life will be different (not trying to sound arrogant, it’s just the facts). When your family is homeschooled, you all do life together constantly. There is rarely a break and you are frequently engaging. The only way to get real space is to leave but you learn to like your siblings. This creates a great friendship as you become teenagers. Unfortunately, that means when one person’s life changes so do everyone else’s in the home, dramatically.

So, in that regard, drop-off will be rough. My plan is to make it a month without going to my house and see how it goes. My birthday will be coming up when a month hits so I plan to have my first visit on my birthday weekend. This goal should help me make it through homesickness and make connections instead of immediately heading to my house. We’ll see though. I have no idea what to expect out of myself.