Trust & Obey

I was so nervous driving to college two weeks ago. I felt nauseous I was so nervous. As we drove, I wasn’t sure what to think. Part of me wondered if I was making an enormous mistake! I left everything I have known my whole life for an adventure filled with unknowns and murky, unsure waters. The question was: am I willing to brave the unknown for the chance of something better, or stay back and feel like my life was never going to go anywhere? Obviously, I chose the former.

When I first got to my dorm room, I was beyond overwhelmed. I discovered there is no air conditioning and our only hope was fans! So many fans. I was absolutely mortified at the thought. My room at my house was always seventy degrees and this one on good days in about eighty-two degrees. On the plus side, though, our suite mates have AC because one of them has allergies and asthma. So, at different times of the day, we leave the bathroom door open to get some cooler air mixed in with our air.

It has been a pretty fantastic all things considering! I have had so much fun meeting different people and talking to them about their majors and what hobbies they are using to get scholarships. A lot of people play instruments or sing, play a sport (or sports), or are here academically, like myself. It’s difficult, though, trying to figure out if these people you’re meeting will last as friends or will just become acquaintances you see in the halls. Despite this, it is still critical to make as many friends as possible because you never know who might just stick.

As far as classes go, it hasn’t been awful. I would say just a lot of work. “Read this, write a little post on elearn about that, come back with questions!” Teachers make these statements all the time and honestly it can be difficult coming back with questions. I don’t always have questions because as long as I get the gist of something I don’t worry. So, it has been unique reading material and being expected to have questions. Community college is not like that.

I was extremely worried I would be missing my family by day five or something and it’s crazy because I do miss them but I want to be here so I’m not bothered. However, I kept thinking my roommate was my sister, Livi, and that was freaky. We would be standing in line together and in my head I would think “Oh, Livi would think this is funny!” and I would turn to tell her and wouldn’t find her. It was so weird!! But it has been so nice creating a life for myself. I am finally moving forward in life when for so long I felt nothing was happening.

Due to all the activities, schoolwork, and having an on campus job, I may not be able to post very frequently. I will work to post as much as I have in the past but I have so much going on it’s hard for me to add on blogging. I am taking a lot of English classes this semester which eats up my writing time. So, if you see I missed a post like I did last week it’s because I have a lot going on!